Recently, it's been quite easy to slip into "do" mode: going from one endeavor to the next in an effort to accomplish goals--work at The EDGE, class, tutoring, caring for Lauren, family, friends, study, baseball (I'm playing on a baseball team!), ect. Of themselves, each of these is important and good for me.
However, I feel like everything can kind of get caught up in this vague sense of duty, an attitude that's finally selfish in nature, even if it strives for servant-heartedness. I recognize the need to fight against that and care for "endeavors" with a true servant-attitude that reflects my heart for Christ:
"Do nothing out of rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant tahn yourselves. Let each of you look not only to your own interestes, but also to the interests of others. Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, who, though he was in the form of God, did not consider equality with God a thing to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men." (Philippians 2:3-7)
Ultimately, this cannot mean that I am to "shrink back" into myself and simply pour through the motions seen as "service," thusly fulfilling my position as one who lives humbly. I really believe that humility must mean that I must live more violently; that is, forcefully and purposefully submitting my functions and the facultities of those functions--relationships to others (v. 3-4), mind (v. 5), and body (v. 8)-- to God.
"And being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross." (Philippians 2:8)
Father, may my brothers and I live with such violent obedience!
